i guess i took some peoples advice and got a book of my poems published. thanks to all who read them and gave me feed back.

the resiprodal is working great. i don't seem to get as confused and frustrated with everyday life. it really helps in social situations too, but i still shake and feel embaresed around other people.

my next book is going to be about my inventions and stuff. seems i really feel bad about how my inventions are useless. how i will never actually be able to do anything with them. yet i can't stop thinking about new inventions any time i see anything? at least now my inventions and thoughts of pattern aren't exactly useless, they help my poetry? and now that i am selling my book (in a month or so it will be published) i can actually donate 15% profits to FARR. and that is just going to make me feel much better inside. gosh i wish i could donate to them with my own money, just no job kinda makes it hard to donate and all, teehee.

i guess i am going to start going out in public. i don't want to, but my wife says i should go to some poetry readings and read some of mine. plus she says that is where i will sell my book, at the poetry meetings. gosh i wish i didn't have to pay for the book, then i would just give them out. the idea that even just one person wants to read my poetry is exciting. but the aspie in me doesn't want to interact within social situation (as always). so i figure if i don't like to do social things, the best way to deal with it would be to do social things. i just have to take it logically (go figure an aspie having logic?teehee) and try to slowly waine myself into social situations. hopefully identifying certain aspects of myself that i may be able to associate new logic with.

my twin brother got married, and he actually asked me to come. which was nice since he doesn't like talking to me. the aspie rambling that i do gets on his nerves.

i have been trying to get my library to hurry up on getting me the RDI but they keep messing it up. i hope there are different avenues of reclassifying self aspects of social situations. i would like to work piece by piece and a great way of doing it is to see how i use to do something. but i have no real worries, just want the darn stuff! heck maybe if i sell enough books i could save the money and get RDI. gosh that would make me smile from ear to ear.

oh well, milli what are you up to? and thanks pamster for sending me the link to this board. kinda feel a little warm and fuzzy knowing at least this new board is up and working.