Guys... I need your help....

I hate what is happening to me... I want to keep the gaith, I need and want to believe He is over there listening to me, but, I cant !!!! I talked to God for 25 years with no problem, I used to strongly belive that He was always there for me, always helping me... giving me the best for me... and now, I simply... cant !!!! I keep wondering if He is really there... and, why He takes some decisions... is... lame... is... bad... I hate this feeling...

What should I do ?

I havent properly prayed in months now...