((((((((((((Judy))))))))))))) I'm so genuinely sorry to hear you're going through such a crap time - can you see a light at the end of the tunnel or is that a daft question?

Yes, I can't speak for others, but I feel like my life used to be one big circle which over the years has gradually shrunk to a pin prick of a dot. You're not alone in feeling the way you do - and I fully support and understand your way of thinking. Please hang in there, one thing about MS is that you never know what tomorrow will bring - and just as it can bring bad, so too can it bring good. PM me if you want to talk luv.