Yes I'm still here....and still wishing I wasn't. I really just want to die. I wish I was strong enough to deal with life's problems, but I'm just not. Life is too hard, and I'm just too weak or lazy or stupid to deal with it. I don't want to try anymore, I just want it to be over.

People keep telling me that life will get better if I give it a chance, but it's been years and life just keeps getting worse. Then they tell me I just need to try another combonation of meds, but no one makes a pill that can cure my terrible life. I'll still have no friends, money, talent or purpose, and I'll still feel just as empty on the inside. How can I possibly live happily in a world I can't stand?

I don't know what to do. I desperatly want someone to comfort me and tell me it's going to be okay, but at the same time I know I'll never be able to believe it's true? And how long do I have to suffer before it's okay that I want to die?