what a night mare, I think your venting is mild considering what you have been through --mine would be considerably worse. I am shocked to hear you are not on any pain medications?.. I dont know how you are surviving. The cold air in your lungs is not familar to me and I thought I had felt everything rsd has to throw, but Im afraid I cant help you there. I'm sorry I hope someone else can.
I am confused about your meeting , I did not know your goal and could not figure out what the doctor was talking about- all sounds so combatitive from the doctor. Almost competitive. Hope things improve. cz