Ditto what Alffe said!
thelonely1.... I am a real person as is everyone who types their words onto this screen... as are you
every one of us is reaching out and comforting you and telling you that you will be alright.
Every single one of us has walked a parallel path in your life... we do know what you are going through ....
you are in a desperate situation and you are the only one who can change right now... I think you're doing great in talking with us... I KNOW you're feeling rotten..
and that is why you have to go to the hospital and ask for help...
yes, it sucks trying to find the right med... accept that fact.... and keep trying until you find the right med....
you are worth it....
baby steps...