an old friend of mine and have recently been chatting via IM on friday nights when he gets done with work. we had agreed to tonight, but he just wasn't up for it. now we all know how that can happen... and i let him off the hook. after getting him to watch the whack-a-kitty video which got his spirits up just a little. but he still needed to get completely off the computer and do something completely different. so we said goodnight.

but i still feel abandoned. and lonely.

i react this way to any such little thing. and i cannot seem to distract myself or get over it already. it sinks in deep and eats my insides.

i feel so empty right now and so incredibly alone.



~ waves ~