WELCOME TO NT!

You've certainly had a lot of traumtic things happen to you in a short time. It's absolutely no surprise that your emotions are in a jumble. Still, a sense of humour can be a powerful tool against adversity. As your situation stabalizes (and you're doing all the right things to make that happen), your funny side will reassert itself and help you along. For now, try to be kind to yourself. Frankly, I wouldn't be coping half as well as you are.