Annie,
First off I wanted to make a suggestion for cooking and eating since by evening you are too wore out to cook. I use my crock pot or slow cooker ALOT!!! I am a vegetarian so I also have to prepare alot of my own food to make sure I am not using animal by products. I love to make soups in it. My favorite is vegetable but you can make just about any kind you like. I am also a big bean eater. I make navy or pinto beans alot. I soak them the day before I plan to eat them with the crock pot off and then turn it on low right before I go to bed. By the next evening they are ready to go. You can make black beans and add things to make it as spicy as you like. I put onion, garlic and cilantro in and eat them with corn tortillas or corn chips. What I have left I refrigerate and use them throughout the week to make taco salad or burritos. I also make casseroles and keep them in the refrigerator to eat on evenings when I don't feel like cooking.

As for the depression. I mentioned in another post that I struggle with that too. I have been on antidepressants since 2003 after my mom died. I was with her when she passed and was haunted by the things I saw her suffer through at the end. I have tried to come off them a couple of times but end up back on them. My Dr. told me a couple of years ago to plan to take them the rest of my life. I have lost 5 family members since 2001 so everytime I think I can manage without them I feel like I am blindsided again with another death in my family. My issue was more anxiety before my diagnosis with MG but now I tend to think it is more depression. My neuro asked me last week if they were helping. I told him yes for the most part. I think the hardest part of MG for me is never knowing how I will feel from one day to the next and worrying about how quickly this disease seems to be progressing. I have always been very outgoing and active and I am having a hard time adjusting to the way I feel and look from this. I know there is a grieving period with illness just like there is when you deal with death. Annie when you made the comment that it is more important to look good than feel good. I am with you on that! I am a Christian and believe that God has a purpose for everything in this world, even the things we don't understand. So I pray for peace and try to spend a few minutes each day doing something I love. Today in Mo it is gorgeous!!! It is 70* and sunny. Last week it was rainy and cold all week so I am sitting here with my door open enjoying the sunshine and warmth. I refuse to let this disease take away my spirit and joy of living. I just need to figure out how to accept that this is my new life and it can still be good just in a different way.
Kendra