Maybe they're called Panic Attacks, i don't know....

But, I had that Giant Little spider byte with steroids, which totally freaked me out. And, I realized another thing. Living here in NE philly, we have the greatest Hoagies and Steak sandwiches.
Well, I found a new place that specializes in South Philly (meatballs, steak sandwiches, much more, but this one sandwich is a "Crab'd Steak", yes, a very nicely "sliced" (not chopped) steak, with anything you want. I get "long hots", melted American cheese, and extra crab gravy (which, if you're not italian, is red sauce, made with crab meat), then, they put a layer of white crab meat over top the steak. Then, I put on the long "HOTS", melted cheese and crab gravy. MMMMM.)

Then, I realized, after that "SPIDER CRAB" bite,
I musta become sensitive to be allergic to crab!
(VERY BAD FOR ME).

This is one of my favorite foods!

I was the fool!

I certainly hope, that once this all passes, that my love for blue crabs is gonna be ok!

Anyways,
after all that, which took me down for more than a month, I'm looking at my paperwork, Which i hate!
I'm panicking.
I've got a wonderful calander / plan makin' software (I love my Mac), and, once I write out what must be done, I settle down. Then, it's up to me, to get it done, with alarms and sich, it's not hard to think ahead, make notes, then I can just carry on, and it's nothing more than a "Process"....

Does anyone else have this?

I don't figure...
I think it's a "living alone" kind of evil.

I once had a test done by a "clinical psychologist", that said I was in less than the 1% percentile for liking any kind of paperwork. I was destined to be "outside, managing a band of outlaws, building any design that I had come up with (My vision of paperwork), and BUILDING something.
I had always had someone in my employ to do my paperwork, since I was about 14 years.

I simply go nutso with this now.
It stops all forward progress, and, more than that, it raises my pain, and I simply stall!
Then, the panic sets in.

If any one can relate too what I'm saying, has any suggestions, let me know?

I expect this thread to drop to the bottom fast, but, if anyone has a suggestion, I'll take it!
I just freak out on paperwork!
It's as if Satan is in it!

Thanks for reading this, I'm sure it's a yawner.....

peace on everyone, love too.....


Pete
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