dad hired a yard man to clear vines off the fence. the yard man took a deposit and was supposed to get started at some point. dad negotiated all this while i was stuck waiting for the tow truck for the car he wrecked by driving it hot. dad now thinks the guy is a confidence man, and it is all my fault because i know the man. i have hired this man once to help me move. today this all came to a head with dad calling the man a liar. this was all my fault because dad says i pushed him off on him. meanwhile dad doesn't want him to come and do the work because he lied. the man showed up to do the work and i had to run him off. i did not do it right and now dad says he is dangerous because i did not run him off right. he is now constantly reminding me he will not live long, or he will go back to california (where he will be safe from my acquaintance, who he apparently thought was my good friend, a convict, and a conman, and that i was going to bed with him), or he should be in a nursing home. i mentioned i need someone to help me move the heavy stuff, and he suggested we do it. i reminded him my neck hurts something awful and he is threatening to move the stuff single handedly.

i tackled the yard work myself (taking my frustrations out on the vines) and helped dad on his latest project where he cut a doorway into the bathroom. i have less and less confidence in his home projects. the commode is right in the doorway. so it has to be moved. he won't hire anyone to help him, because they are all out to get him. nothing i do is right no matter what it is. he wants me to be more self sufficient. when i read how to do a doorway in a book he won't let me do it to code, he only needs it to last a month till he dies. then he is surprised when i can't fathom his plan.

we get in a huge argument while i am driving him home and i am so mad i see him home and go back to work to pack up my stuff and hone my resume for a 10 am job counselling session tomorrow. naturally the jobsite is down for maintenance so i can't even pull up my resume. even my dog is shivering from my stress.

my cousin calls him and from her home 5 states away she is so wonderful and like a daughter to him.

btw i have not had a date in 3 years so i am not sleeping with the yard man. and i have serious doubts if he lied to my dad, so after dropping my dad off i apologised to him and asked him nicely to stay away. with tears dripping down my cheeks. so i don't think he will mug us.