I wake every morning, my eyes flying open like uncontrolled holland blinds. Then the thoughts start...or do they start and then my eyes fly open? one or the other every day.

It's usually between 3 and 4am, on a rare but really good night it's 5 to 6am. Problem is, I can't stay in bed. The thoughts assault me at 1000 miles an hour.

I get out of bed to do something to keep me occupied. Then I slowly start to lose energy and become chronically tired. my eyes barely able to stay open. But the anxiety decides I can't sleep, something may happen, so my eyes fly open again as I look around the house for possible problems.

It's as if I am literally afraid to sleep but I'm not getting nearly enough of it
<- me about an hour after I get up

Anyone else feel this way?

Thanks for reading,
Rhiannon