Blue you have some very wise views on people. I agree completely about some people being "plastic" and unfeeling, and their leaving doesn't really hurt me very much. I don't want to hang out with people like them anyway. The only thing that truly hurts is one friend I had up until just a few months ago. She was sweet and caring, responsible and mature. She even actually needed me on an emotional level. What really bothers me is that she was corrupted by the world, she gave in to the mindless urges to party and have a good time. It was never a conscious choice to abandon me, she just gradually moved away from me and towards the shallow drunken life she could have without me. It just bothers me that someone so good and so pure can be so easily corrupted and not even notice or care.

That's why I'm alone. Because I don't want to give in to headonism like everyone else in the world. I don't want to live party and get drunk.......

I'm probobly too naive, I should throw away my ideals and party pointlessly with everyone else and live a shallow meaningless life.....