Hi, Waves,

It's kind of gross.
That's certainly an initial reaction of mine to that.
I'm hoping that the spices in the sausage helped you not notice the smell too much.
I think one of the results of this is that you are feeling less secure. I'm not finding the right words for this.
I guess that you can get thrown for a loop and then not feel as safe as you were before this event.

Probably most people have varying attitudes that are contradictory about their meat eating (beef is ok but not veal, and so on . . . . ).
When I was young my parents kept chickens, pigs, cows.
We kept goats but strictly as pets.
It is kind of weird that not just cultures but families and then individuals chose what is acceptable and what is not. And then individuals change.

I'm in a stage where I am kind of grossed out by all animal products. I'm a mass of contradictions about animals because I do eat them.

That's kind of your mother to accommodate you by having the left overs when you are out of the house. 'Sorry that she did not accommodate you before you were faced with that.

Mari