starstorm, I'm so sad and sorry . . . this story is heartbreaking. I'm a survivor on both sides -- my grandmother, my 1st cousin's son, my 3rd cousin -- all dead by suicide, yet I woke up from a 10-day coma after trying to end my own life.

You have come to a good place. There are members here who can understand and share with you their own stories but who will always listen to you with compassion and empathy. I'm dealing with a crisis on my own home-front right now, but I couldn't pass by your post without stopping and saying to you that I'm sorry for your loss and know that you have heartache and pain. I'll try to come back and talk with you later.

(starstorm)