I've got less then 2 wks to the pain pump trial and time is going so slowly. I think that, for some reason, I'm getting, not scared, but irritable. I don't know why. I have high hopes for the pump, so I don't think it's that. I just watched Bones, and at the end the grandfather went to a retirement home. SOmehow that has got me so depressed. I think it bring back memories of last year this time being put in a nursing home with old ppl and ppl dying. It was the worse thing that has happened to me. I thought I had put all the memories of that place to rest, but now I'm here, feeling almost sick. just wanting time to pass. I fell in the mud/wet grass today, on my back on right side. I'm living on my pain meds and advil. I've actually got a headache of sorts. don't want to do anything, talk to anyone. So I figured I'd better get on here and share. I've learned that when things seem depressing, that getting on here with my friends pulls me out of if, and puts me back into my happy go luck. don't give a darn, self.

Hugs
Mary