one thing I know I wrote to you , that I forgot to mention . I got to try my Neuro stim for a week before it was implanted. I got to try it first and decide if I wanted it ,did it help , can I do things couldnt before I tryed this..... and a zillion other questions happen . I know one cant TRY an m.v.d. before they decide for real if they want one or TRY gamma knife.. or TRY severing a nerve ... I couldnt try out what it would be like with my nerves severed then decide I do not like it take the opperation back..
I know you will sort threw all of the conversations and input you have gotten.. I bet it is all flying non stop in your mind right now. make sure you eat and get sleep... you figure things out better when you sleep good. God and you will find the right next move to do. Many blessings.