Hi Kim. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, ( I wish you could hear me sing!) Thanks for the friends request you are my first! I will tell you that your kids will come around, I go to my room and cry a lot too. I spent the past four days alone, and I really miss them. They are coming home today and I know that all of my hard work cleaning will be out the window! I feel rested. Maybe you should take a little time to yourself. Have all of your friends gone to wayside? If not try to go to a movie or even for a cup of coffee. I'm glad to see Mike responded to your post, he is a wealth of information and terrific guy. You will get a lot of support here. Keep a smile on your face remember stress brings on pain. I like to go for small walks with Lindsay, (when she is up to it) She'll ask me to watch a really bad movie with her, but even if I know I am not going to like it I stick it out. I dropped one off at college two and a half years ago and I had a sense of relief but quite a big sadness. Now she is an adult and I think she really appreciates me now. She calls everyday just to talk. Be thankful for your life, why God dealt you this hand is not understood. I tell Lindsay that every day. You know just in December when she had a really bad flare, she was hospitalized and the doctor on the floor kept grabbing her leg, I had to threaten her, she sent a psych consult to talk with her because she insisted she was faking, because she heard her laughing with me. I will never forget that day...fortunately a pm doctor came to see her and diagnosed the RSD and the floor doctor was put in her place. But the lesson learned by Lindsay that day, a 15 year old child, was that doctors are cruel, and her plan for the rest of her life was that she was going to be a doctor. She wants to be a hospitalist. The doctor that takes care of you when you are in the hospital. She said those doctors are the worst they have no compassion. We all have life lessons, some good some horrible. But, we can look at this as God's way of making us stronger. Trust in God, never lose your faith, I know it is tested often but He will always be there for you.

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving and we will talk soon.

Love Sandy