saw pdoc, told all and thensome.

he said it was indeed plausible for the benzo to have caused apathy. i asked if i seemed like i might be getting hypo. he said definitely a bit... and to hold the taper for now.

heck! why can't i just get un-apathetic, why must i go from bozo to hypo?

&)#*(*&$#(*)&^&@(&$

Well, at least it's the kind that feels good... except when something crosses/stresses me also some of the impulses are already overwhelming.

i WANT the energy, i craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaave the energy and i crave bunches of other things........... things are not ruinous so far... but certainly time to carry minimum cash and leave all plastic home! (not too compatible with gift shopping! )

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i see pdoc again on Tuesday... he says wait till then (no extra meds until then). heck, i don't want to get worse, then again, i can't do a whole freakin gram of depakote (am already at 800 mg) it will make me fat probably and Zyprexa, hah!

good news: we have Geodon now!
bad news: it is not prescribable except for ACUTE MANIA or SCHIZOPHRENIA.

geez, thanks the rest of us have to get diabetes or TD i suppose.

~ waves ~