My dad is a nurse anesthetist (the guy responsible for making sure you dont feel any pain and that you're breathing) I have anesthesia phobias because he's told me a couple of horror stories, but he's also told me about something called a BIS monitor. that can be used to monitor what level of wakefulness you have when under anesthesia.

I've already told him that if I ever need surgery for anything, and they want to put me out, that I want him to talk to the anesthetist putting me under and make sure they use a BIS monitor.

As for being awake during a surgery, I've done that once...till the anesthetist put me out because I was driving him nuts talking. (well, gee, shoot me up with a bit of Versed to relax me and what do you expect?) I was having carpal tunnel surgery, (I'd had a bier block because of my anesthesia phobia) and I was awake for a good part of it till I drove the anesthetist nuts (and probably the doctors too). At least they didnt have to put a mask over my face for it. That's part of my phobia. I'm claustrophobic and anything over my face freaks me out. He just pushed more Versed until I was asleep.

At least having an anesthetist parent has given me a bit of an idea of what to expect if I ever have a surgery, and that it's important to talk to the guy (or girl) giving the anesthesia to see if they can do anything to keep me from being scared of the anesthesia.

I just cant wait to talk to my regular doctor about the CCSVI and see what he thinks about it. I would love to at least be evaluated and maybe see if there's something they can do or give me and see if the MS improves or slows down.

I think if I call my doctor tomorrow morning, I'll just tell him that I read something about the CCSVI, and I was wondering if he could research it and tell me what he thinks about it. He wont give me LDN because he thinks it's a placebo and plus he cant get any neuros in Omaha to back him up on it. I just dont want him to have the same reaction that he had when I asked him for the LDN. (I think he thinks that I'm nuts or totally desperate. Probably true, but I dont want him to think that)