Abby,

I hear ya, understand what you are saying. A hug can share what I can not express. You sum up a lot of my life. I try to keep busy, it coverups the deep emotions and drain on the spirit. Gets overwhelming too.
I really would so like to crawl under a rock lately. This getting dark just after 4 pm really takes a huge blow.

Family doc says the chronic fatique syndrome is from years of pain takes the toll on they body and no answer for that. Not a good enough answer, takes too much away from life. Like you say only getting out of bed, or for me getting off the recliner when I need to. So hard with all I have going on. The mind is willing it is they body that fails me, which makes the mind said, stressed and cluttered.

I have a lamp from Home depot, or was it Boscov's. I do notice that I "like" it. There is no heat, not a lightbulb, one of those that are said to simulate sunlight. It is on a base with the arm that comes over my work area. My recliner. I do not have it on me directly, it is near my feet....I live in my recliner. It is broke.....I have slept in it for several years now.
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