Hi Sandy!
I just wanted to give you a link to check out. It's the UCSD MBSR program website, and it has some really great resources. It has guided meditations and relaxation exercises that you can download. I commend you for being proactive on this- I know that it's hard, and self examination can be brutal sometimes. But I know that for me, this program was one of the best things that I have ever done for my pain or myself.
Have you ever thought about seeing a therapist/counselor? Sometimes it really helps to talk to someone who is outside of your life and has no attachments to you. It does for me at least. I don't like talking to my family and friends about RSD because I feel guilty for burdening them. But with my therapist it's really different. Just a thought. Hope that this site helps out a bit. And I know that there are similar programs all over the country. Google and check it out!
http://mindfulness.ucsd.edu/mbsr.htm
Lynns