I am sorry that you did not sleep. I wish I can just give you my sleepiness so you can have a goodnight rest with sweet dreams. I sleep so well people I can sleep through an earthquake. As a matter of fact, I have done that a lot when I lived in CA LOL
Why are you afraid of sleep?
I remember how I used to be afraid of sleep. But that was because of my anxiety attacks. I sleep with the light on I was that scared of them. Do not do that it is really bad for you.

I am not sure what you can do except maybe some cognitive relaxation. But it i hard to calm down when you go through these things. stupid BRAIN GGGGRRRR

I can totally relate.

I hope you get rest soon and are safe

What works for me is soft music like baby lulabyes but on very low. Instrumental of course. I