I was wondering if a verse in the Bible might help you. Isaiah 41:10 has been a help to me. I have dozens more that help lift me up.

Please keep breathing in,and out. Do you have any music of the Ocean,and sounds of the tide? These things can help with your mood. Be still,listen,and picture in your mind these calm peaceful settings.

See if your doctor can see you sooner. Make a list of questions on paper in which you can ask him. BF