Originally Posted by keep smilin

me feel loved.. Thank you!! As I have just read all of your passages and I am touched by the love and words you have all said.. I believe this feels like a greaving process.. I am typically an upbeat, happy person.. not a crier, least in front of people but this is tearing my heart out.. I can only compare this pain to when I loss my Dad and how much that hurt. I loved my work and best yet all of my friendships I developed there..It was my glue..
Sandy S. you are so correct in your wisdom, as I too think God is telling me to slow down now.. I have fought, I mean fought by literially draging my body around with the use of my cane each day ...for these 2+ years. And how bold of me to think I would not cave to RSD... But, now I am tired and my tank in coming up empty..
My favorite saying as people pass by each day and inquire about my condition has always been " I am fine, it's okay"... Today I want to say to each of you that it is still okay...sad but okay as I think we all have a path to follow..it's how we handlle the bumps and curves in the road is what really matters.. I can honestly say that I feel loved and so supported by you all here.. I thank you for caring about me and sharing my sadness. Even tho I have just crossed a bridge in my life due to my illness..this does not take away the concern and prayers I want to share for each of you.. Bittersweet but without RSD I would have never connected with such wonderful friends... Thank each and everyone of you for being my friend and sharing your love and support!

BTW.. I am scheduled in March of 2010 to see Dr. S in PA... Drexel for a ketamine treatment consult...