can you believe that i am still upset that my youngest nephew was happy about Jonestown and all those kids dying.? My friend said I am very hard on people besides being very hard on myself. I don't like writing journals. It is too much pressure. I wonder how much anger other medicated bipolar people feel. When i wasn't medicated, i felt a lot of irritability and i guess anger. I went back to a higher amount of medication recently because of the anger irritability and appetite.
My close friends have a lot of compassion. I feel very isolated from people who don't and hypocritical when I overlook it. I don't know what to do. My sister has been charming me to me. I got to the point where I needed her back as a sister regardless of everything. I think i am getting to the point of forgiveness towards my mother. I already forgave my father and he did become a hero to me. I CAN'T FORGET.
bobby who hates feeling angry and ungreatful