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Join Date: Oct 2006
Location: In a DARK corner.... not looking for a way out.
Posts: 5,526
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Elder
Join Date: Oct 2006
Location: In a DARK corner.... not looking for a way out.
Posts: 5,526
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I wonder that if one more person tells me to be strong, suck it up, hang on, or anything else along those lines... someone just may get hurt!!
I wonder that I may not seem positive.. I'm not.... It's hard to be positive when negative is just about all that happens to me... but I am still here so obviously... I am hanging on.
I wonder that it may not look like I am fighting... Duh... I'm still here.
I wonder if I can let everyone know that I do fight the demons of suicidal thoughts many, many, many times a day... I do have some fight left in me.
I wonder that many, many times I do want to walk away and leave the monsters in my life behind.... I understand that this would hurt others and that is something that I DO NOT want to do.
I wonder that getting this out has eased my brain.. Please don't worry about me... as I said... I'm still here.
Abbie
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My avatar pic is my beautiful niece Ashley!
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Rest in Peace 3/8/90 ~~ 4/2/12
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