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Old 12-17-2009, 02:53 PM
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I wonder that if one more person tells me to be strong, suck it up, hang on, or anything else along those lines... someone just may get hurt!!

I wonder that I may not seem positive.. I'm not.... It's hard to be positive when negative is just about all that happens to me... but I am still here so obviously... I am hanging on.

I wonder that it may not look like I am fighting... Duh... I'm still here.

I wonder if I can let everyone know that I do fight the demons of suicidal thoughts many, many, many times a day... I do have some fight left in me.

I wonder that many, many times I do want to walk away and leave the monsters in my life behind.... I understand that this would hurt others and that is something that I DO NOT want to do.

I wonder that getting this out has eased my brain.. Please don't worry about me... as I said... I'm still here.



Abbie
I wonder if Abbie knows that we understand the monsters...the desire to have the pain end...the frustration of yet another day of more of the same......

I wonder if others, who do not share the beast of depression, have any idea how much strength it takes just to keep on keeping on...

I wonder about Hope and how elusive it seems at times....

I wonder about the courage it takes to share our feelings, to reach out yet again...to teach others how to behave and how NOT to behave...

I wonder if I can leave Abbie a hug....
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