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Join Date: Sep 2006
Posts: 18,914
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Legendary
Join Date: Sep 2006
Posts: 18,914
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See tdoc first time in 5+ wks today
Hi,
I am depressed and tired. . . . sleeping in bits here and there for weeks now.
I really don't want to sleep.
I am going to my appointment purposely looking like a mess.
Normally I might made sure that in general my clothes and hair are mostly ok -- I would therefore look like I normally look to her.
This time I am going to makde a point of not cleaningup for her.
In case I am not able to communicate to her verbally about how badly I am doing, I will help her SEE how I am doing.
I really need her to do some intervention and not the cr*ap she's been telling me about how well I am managing.
Hubby is doing a night of DVDs at a buddy's apt, so I will be by myself for a few hours in the afternoon / evening. Maybe I can sleep when I get home from tdoc. If not, maybe I can go to a sauna at the gym and purge some tears and sweat from my system.
I'm trying. I'm really really trying to stay alive and stay sane.
M.
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