Snowboarder you have a huge heart i can tell. I agree with you 100% It simply just ain't fair.
This forum is so wonderful. Sometimes i'll see a post from someone else who just needs a fellow companion to say "hey man, i know what you're feelin'. We don't have to be experts. It really helps to 'build me back up a little' each time i contribute something positive to someone else's thread.

And Mike , thank you as well! You are SO right. At this point i guess it's obvious the 'cause' of my onset simply is NOT going to present itself.
I'm so sorry to hear how yours began. It hurts my legs to even THINK about going up any stairs at this point.

I remember reading somewhere that once we ACCEPT that this is happening to us, we will go thru a gammet of emotions similar to losing a loved one or a tragic death. There is a grieving process.....then denial......then anger.....saddness/depression..... you know.

Thank you all for your compassion - and please accept mine as well.
Happy Holidays....
Rae