Thank you Lynn,,,I've read this before, but it has more meaning to me right now than I've managed to get from it before. I am working with it and trying really hard, and it is exhausting. Just a week ago I put a knife to my wrist, but, ultimately knew it just wasn't sharp enough to do it right, and the one I love lying asleep in the next room. I put it away and went online for help. I'm so sorry for having sunk so far, and, yes, ashamed!!! I can hardly see through the tears to write this and am afraid to even post it. The one I love with all my heart is fighting too, and it is just so hard!!! I love you, all I ask for is prayers for both of us.