Moi,

Today in church the priest was speaking about parents. And this would apply to you because in the end, you were the parent and your dad was the ornery child.

The priest said he hates to hear parents put themselves down saying they could have done so much better. I could relate to that because I went through those feelings as a parent. And I went through those feelings parenting my mom and dad in their agedness.

You did your best. Those feelings are natural under the circumstances. You faced a very difficult situation and you shouldn't expect that you should have responded in a God-like manner!

You're MOI!! And you're imperfect (as all of us humans are) but you LOVED your dad! You did it, even if imperfectly, you were there, and you cared for him even with the feelings of anger!

I had to work through anger toward my parents at a very young age but for different reasons. You can get through it but you need to give yourself a break. You were going through this for the first time and it was difficult.

You're a very good person and you shouldn't carry this guilt. Your dad knows now that you loved him (as I believe and know our loved ones know these things, beyond this world.)

It's ok to acknowledge this anger; but let it go. It's ok that you had it and perfectly natural. You have a lot of people who love you. Release the guilt because it serves no purpose.

~ Wiz the psychologist-wannabe steps off of the stage now ~