It is so sad when our families don't understand what we are going through. Your pain is real and is very tough to deal with. The stress of it also makes it worse. Is there a person outside of your family you could talk to just to get it all out? Maybe someone at a local church can help direct you who to talk to. Sometimes just letting someone know how much you are hurting and them just listening and no trying to fix the problem reduces the stress levels and in turn we can handle the pain better. The people we think should understand what living in pain is like disappoint us and it does hurt. So we have to go outside of that and find other people to help. Try to do it before your marriage takes more stress on. let us know how you are doing and what has helped. Tomorrow may be a better day.