I agree, Tracy.

You need to get the stress of off the relationships that are important to you!
I've 'lost' lots of loved ones to it, and it's really painful.

You can't deal with things if you're in that level of pain that you describe.
You've got to get that under control once and for all!
Nobody MRI' your spine, or did any other relevant tests?
Unfortunately, for us and the general population, our health tends to get worse as we age, not better. And, people find it easy to be cold about things they can't or won't understand.

I hope you can get to a caring doctor, who will manage your pain better! It seems to me that you are under treated. Do your best to find a real good doctor, because until you do, you, and those around you will suffer.

I really hope the best for you!

pete