Oh crap I DO

I had a crisis last night ( AGAIN !)... I had fear all night... I cried and tried to pray all night long... Main poblem: FEAR !!! I felt fear about my health... my loneliness...

And guess what, Im having sentimental relations' problems... Seriously, why, I mean WHY, everytime I put my eyes in somebody, everytime I feel motivation for doing things for that people, BANG ! He is married, has a gf, like somebody else... Oh.. my never ending story....

That put me in a nasty mood...

And a new year coming... and, I hate to receive a new year feeling this crap... I have no hope in anything...

Grrrr....

WHY WHY WHY !