It sounds like anxiety. You also sound very tired. Do you let yourself rest during the day? If not, try lying down for two hours a day every day this week to see if it helps.

I found a wonderful book called Mastering your Anxiety and Worry by David Barlow. Its a workbook, and available at Amazon. You can do it in your own home. There is also a workbook called Mastering your Anxiety and Panic, same author, if you get panic attacks.

What is the point in worrying if there is a flare coming on? It only makes one more anxious. If it comes, it comes, you will deal with it. Focus on the present and the future will take care of itself.

Now, go lie down for a couple of hours: Mother says so.