I can use distraction, meditation, yoga, singing, writing, and sometimes a good hard look at myself, and the situations around me, will help bring things into focus. I used to have horrible panic/anxiety attacks, and working in a prison, they can smell fear on ya. That made it worse. I used to sit in my car after work and just sob. couldnt figure it all out. A wise woman taught me to slow down, and just listen to me. Stop listening to everyone, and everything else, and just tune into me.

That is how I know this new level of anxiety is different. I am not saying its not possible that its plain old anxiety, just that this is a new level for me. Makes me wonder what changed, or is changing. I do recall feeling this way just before my ON in 02.

Thanks for all the hugs, public and private.