Slow down ma'dear and smell the roses, if you can find them in the snow.
I'm not much help because I worry non stop and the only way around it that I've found, other than medication, is having structure in my schedule. Around everything!
I often wake up with a sick feeling of dread every morning. All I can do is shrug it off and keep going.
You need one of these

and I really hope you feel better Dej, you don't deserve this!