You poor thing! I think I can speak for all of us, saying we can relate to those days when the flare eats at you so bad, it feels as though your mind is going to split. Simply own up that you are just having a "bad day" and it will pass. And in the grande scheme of things, those really, REALLY bad days usually only last a day or two. I'll keep you in my thoughts and pray for you that upon next day's awakening, the agony you are being tortured with will subside (at least a little!!)
God bless and lots of hugs for you

Vanna