times like this i am grateful not to be a parent.

kid upstairs is screaming ... shrilly shrieking ... fighting with his parents (or someone) again. it is like a dagger in the brain to me. sometimes he seems to be crying but then stops abruptly - then will arbitrarily start hollering again. he says stuff but it is unintelligible. he also runs (STOMPS) around on my head (ceiling). i don't know what the deal is. he is not even a baby/toddler any more. must be about 5 or so now. and this is an almost daily occurrence. maybe something is wrong with him. OR maybe he is just spoiled rotten. but we are in no position to find out or do anything about it it would be taken at very best as an attempt on our part to complain about the noise.

ah the pleasures of living in a condo.

i feel really pi**y today.

oh the kid has stopped for now. i guess they got him to do whatever he didn't want to do (usually NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO is part of the screaming, occasionally an adult voice starts to yell as well, suggesting confrontation.) and then after a stampede and more shrieking there is total quiet. i have wondered if it has had to do with going to school because it used to happen weekday mornings and then a door would shut and that would be it. weekends lots of stomping but no shrieking. or rather, arbitrary shrieking spells occur but not systematically in the morning.

ahh he is still stomping around. drives me nuts. why can't they live on the ground floor. when i was a kid and came to visit my aunt i was NOT ALLOWED to run around indoors. reason: it was rude to the people living on the floor below.

i actually saw the kid coming back from the park with a nanny one evening. he was acting up in the elevator. didn't want to leave the park. i earned a really vicious look from him when i told him not to beat on his nanny (he was punching the woman!) he would get to go to the park again the next day if he was good. (heheh, note the "if ___ good" clause )

sigh. i guess i better get ready. have pdoc appointment. feel a void in my mind as to what to talk about. feel at a loss in my life. have been fishing out lots of old music on youtube and overwhelmed with nostalgia. i just sang a little and ... more nostalgia and sadness, hopelessness.

~ waves ~