went to the big city hospital for my six month follow up. Dragged out my laundry list of complaints, and was informed that I am indeed in a flare. I was offered IVSM if I wanted it, but since I am so far into the flare I was told it wouldnt make a huge difference in recovery if I said no. I declined. No wonder I am anxious, tense, and itchy. oh, btw, this means my trip in ONE WEEK is now postponed! I am so mad Now I get to stay home, and have the DH play the "i told you so" card. I was at the exit! I was almost gone! I moved my appointment up so I wouldnt miss out before I went away too.

I just wanna cry.