Even though he said he did not want to participate, as soon as an award he is entitled to half. Just because he is a sperm donor. I failed my family, I have no way to provide now. Why is life so unjust. I took care of every need every day of her life, I would give my life for her to live, marry and have children.

There really is no hope, I wanted to leave this world in peace knowing that my kids had a roof, homes, and counseling. Even younger one could get her braces....I am such a failure. I hate how the law can do this what is wrong with me.......I do not want to face tomorrow with no hope.
it is the control. just like the abuse I lived with....

He is still abusing me.......30 years., when does it end. I hurt so bad, like losing her all over again.

Our son came in now and said, "Oh, he will match what ever you give me"
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Does that not say control.