You are not a big baby. If you are, then I'm a monkeys uncle. When I had my trial I was in bed in such pain for almost 3 days. by day 5 it was better and I was able to get up out of bed and walk around. It was wonderful when I had the trial. I then got my perm and a year later had it changed out as the leads had moved and the battery, which was in my butt, had moved. I had another implanted, and I never got to find out if it was better or not. After 3 wks I developed an MRSA infections, had it removed and swore I would never have another surgery to try to make me feel better. I lied. a year later and I have tried the trial for the pain pump, and it is like getting my life back. I get the perm unit implanted in 10 days. I can't wait. I know with the scs I couldn't ever ride my horses again. I will be able to with the pain pump. I want my complete life back with all the things that I used to do. Riding horses is one thing that I live for. Once the pump is healed I'll be able to ride again. I can't wait. I do know that the pump is the way for me. I found the scs too restricting. But that is just me. You need to experience the trial and see if it works. It doesn't for everyone. If that doesn't work, then maybe the pump. That is why you can do the trials. don't let anyone tell you that you have to get this or that. I had to find a dr. that is in another state in order to get the pump. Why/// well, it seems, like you have experienced, that once you get the scs, the dr is done with you and you are handed off to the metroncis rep. With the pump, the dr. is committed to working with you for well over a year or so while they work on the correct dose and cocktail that works for you and you alone. I still had to take my drugs, even while having the scs. What I wanted, was to get off drugs so I could drive and live.... Iknow the future is waiting for me now, and I'm already looking for part time jobs for the future after I heal in 6-8 wks from surgery. My life is back..

Hugs
Mary