Thank you all so very much..in this time of darkness and despair you are the light at the end of my very long tunnel.

I have a 17 year old son who is testing the patients of a saint, On Sunday it came to a head and his Mother told him to leave. I went to speak to him [he fled to his girlfriends without clothes i might add, so obviously did not take the threat seriously]

I told him he could return only if he changed his ways. I returned home lost my temper because i felt he had no intentions of altering his ways, broke my kitchen sink [money out i can ill afford] and blah blah blah..

last night back to square one my wife and i were awake until 2am waiting for him to come home . I resist shouting at him because regretably [i punched him in October after a huge row when he was barking orders at me] I think he thinks i wont do it again therefore he thinks he can act as he wants to.

I love him but i dont like him.

I get so frustrated that i feel like a rabbitt in the headlights of a car...not knowing which way to turn....i then turn inwardly and feel i'd be better of out of it......but that panic passes i understand that is no the option...............but when in panic mode i get so scared of what i might do.

once again thank you all for your concern....

David

the words are a song Da-duck but so very true...very very true....