Awww dear David, 17 year olds in this day and age!! Definately can be enough to drive a parent to desperation!!! It's very hard not to turn it inwards on yourself. But when you do it becomes tooooooo much to try to bear alone, and then that ole beast sees the opportunity to rear it's ugly head and tempt. I'm glad you made it through and are still with us. You do, indeed, mean very much to us here. Very happy you are being watched over. It is so true but hard to remember at those times that, "This too shall pass.". Praying for your strength to hold up and some place of peace in the midst of the storm. ((hugs))