I am so sorry for all that you are going thru. I wish I could be there to help you thru all this pain and suffering. I don't have it as bad as you but i am dealing with a great deal of things myself. I just hope the best for you and hope things get better for you.take care and keep us posted so we know how you are doing.

Sincerely,
Tracy

p.s. I sent lots of soft hugs your way if it helps.