What's this ??

I feel angry, sad, confused, excited and tired at the same time...

It is the first time in my life I accept to feel crazy... this worry me...

Im not taking any medicine...

I...

I... I cant even express... what Im feeling... I hate everything that suround me in this moment...

I hate the music I liked yesterday, I hate the food I liked yesterday... I... argh... Im mad... I feel like punching (does that verb exist ?) a pillow (instead of killing somebody and get me more trouble !!)

I hate my home, my life...

My head feels weird...

I hate the fact, for example, that Im mad like crazy and my father can only offer me food and ask stupid things instead of taking me to the psychiatrist... I cant belive I look normal... doesnt he realise ??

I feel so confused !!! gosh

thanks for reading