Oh dear Blue, I'm sorry you feel bad.
You are
not crazy, depression is just a horrible confusing thing. It is a greedy, selfish monster that eats your happiness... maybe you should get some medications to lull the monster back to sleep? Being on meds is not a bad thing, they are a necessary tool to improve your life.
The things you liked yesterday haven't changed; when the monster goes away you'll be able to see that, and you will like them again. It's just a matter of time...
Try to be patient, okay? You are worth the wait and effort. Seek help wherever you can, whether in therapy or with meds, or both, and we will always be here as a never ending supply of love and support. I want you to be happy just as much as you do.