((David)) I really must apologize..... I saw your thread, and I knew you needed support, but I wasn't able to give it to you. The last words my Dad said was, "well, I think I have had enough" ...... the title of your thread sent me deeper into my own dark place.... I couldn't even read your thread... I just left.... and I am truly sorry I wasn't able to be here for you. I hope you can find it in your heart to understand.

I LOVE this forum and all the family I have found here!! Yet at times, the pain here can be overwhelming. Both witnessing the pain from those who feel so badly they want to end their pain, and from those survivors falling apart after a loved ones suicide. I find myself in both categories and I have a major conflict within myself.

Suicide is never the answer. It is not even an option for me, period. But, I do understand the want to escape the pain...............

I am so sorry you were in such a bad place. But, I am grateful you were able to find the strength and courage to reach out. You amaze me, over and over again. I hope life will treat you kindly, much love ♥ Nikki