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Originally Posted by snowboarder13
I dream of retreating to 9 years ago... Before my dad died, before I got RSD before I moved. I would make sure my Dad didnt die so if I still ended up getting RSD he would be there to help me, instead of trying to go at this alone. I feel lost all the time. I feel sad and empty all the time, knowing that I have something that will never go away, knowing that my dad isnt here to see me struggle through this and be proud of me for making it. I would go back to the park across the street from my old house and imagine myself playing with my dad there... RUNNING as if I'll never run again. I have only had RSD for 4 years but everyday I sit and ask what would this all be like if my dad was here to help...
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Dear Snowboarder, Your Dad is with you everystep of the way to help you. Whenever you feel really down or scared, I bet you think of your dad. That is him in you. He is watching over you everyday and you will always be in his heart and he in yours. Unlike most of our families, he is aware of your pain and struggles. I would be very proud of you, I know he is. Enjoy your time with your dad, even if only for a moment, embrace it and go there just as you said, just you and your dad running and playing as you always have.
God Bless You, you are a special little creature!!
Jeanie